When I swim in the ocean I make sure to forget the blue whales If I don’t I’ll surely sink, stupefied. I cannot believe it cannot fathom the giants that billow and heave below. So I float on the surface and forget the blue whales. Whales are like dreams: An important justification for the memories we lose every morning is that dreams are too boundless, too impossible. A reasonable mind could never stretch that far when the sun rises. A forgotten dream is a small price to pay for certain sanity. My grandfather tells a story of being swallowed by a giant fish. He orates and soliloquizes and prophesizes about the time he prayed for release from deep within that great pink cavern while slimy whale spit oozed down the walls like the dripping thaw of an ancient glacier. He tells of the time he prayed in the dark reconciling his reality, and his disbelief, only because he could not escape it. But for me understanding what my grandfather felt would be like holding onto dreams or witnessing blue whales: too unimaginable to remember. 2017, revised 2023